I can hardly recognise my thoughts anymore.
What am I doing to myself?
I hardly ever feel hungry. Just at night.
I have intervals of focussing.
I have running thoughts.
I’m losing the idea of what life is.
Movies I can’t make time for.
Friends I can just stare at.
Phone that gets constant scrolls.
Lecture videos to keep up to.
Feels like there’s many much load lot of gems growing in my mouth.
I’m thankful for a talkative roommate and sister. Who forces me to look up for a while. And realise other than studying 14 hours a day, there’s still something to talk about.
I need to feel alive again.