I type. I think. At 20, everything still isn’t clear.
It is so bad. To be feeling optimistic one moment. And then very sad the next.
It felt like a long talk w my parents over lunch.
And they told me to be realistic.
Have I really just been dreaming?
It was definitely disappointing, how our weekends have been spent together.
And now my head cannot get back to study mode.
What is going on with me?
I know what I want.
Yet I don’t get what I want.
And then i still press on.
It is easy to tell others, Why let yourself suffer.
Here I am feeling miserable and going on.